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:: Look Down to Lift Up ::

"The only time a man should look down on another is when he is lifting him up."

That's what it wrote in the poster and has been my inspiring factor.

I was awoken by a nightmare this morning.
I was walking in the mall and I saw one of my past instructors. He saw my incompleted report card from my foundation program that I recently attended and burst out to me saying that I will never succeed.

I immediately retaliated and say he shouldn't say that and he should say "good luck" in chinese. I also shout back in his face how lousy a leader he is giving such discouragement to his men. He is nothing more than a pawn for the king. Leaders use the power of influence for people to follow them and not use their command and control or the authority given to them. Leaders have willing followers that will give their lives for them. Do you?!!

I woke up and started thinking about all the lousy experience I had with the terrible teachers in the past. The bias-ness of the teachers towards the better graded students and their ignorance towards the lousy ones namely ME. Especially my primary school. It continued in Secondary school. My hatred for them grew more and more. I really want to go back one day and tell them how to be a proper teacher.

I believe that teachers can significantly change the lives of an individual more than anyone else. I believe that the teacher's skill in teaching is only as good as the result of the worst student. A leader is as good as the weakest member in the team.

I believe that the only time you can look down on someone is when you want to help them up. Just like what the poster says...

I believe that my destiny is to help these people. The victims that were looked down upon by haughty eyes. I need to give those teachers a lesson!

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, November 10, 2009, 10:53 AM

:: Moving up to a new level ::

"Wise men store up knowledge,
but the mouth of a fool invites ruin." - Proverbs 10:14

I just finished my foundation program yesterday and I can officially sell single premium le. Still got several exams to clear before I'm a full fledged Consultant. I didn't know it's so strict in this country to sell policies.

More importantly, I learnt that insurance is much more than I thought it was. It's not something that everybody can do. It's also not something everybody can buy.

People can't buy it when they really need it, it's usually too late when they realized.

I realize we are the only people who can go to a widow during his husbands wake service and hand her a million dollar cheque and say 'this is what ur husband left behind.' Btw, wake services cost 20k-30k for traditional, 10k for muslims and much higher for christians... Breadwinners are important in a family. They are like the pillars of a family, everything will collapse when they are gone.

I also realize we are the only people who can go to some1 who had just met with a serious accident and can never work for the rest of their life and hand them a big cheque and say 'your hospital bills and medical bills are covered.' Btw, medical bills for serious injuries or critical illness can amount to over 100k and many people suffer financially to the point of bankruptcy due to these unforeseen circumstances. And usually, people can't find a job after this... who's going to take care of them for the rest of their lives?

Knowing this, I've also realize I've got a heavy responsibilty to share this important piece of info that many overlook in their lives...

So don't be surprise if I call. I must start making phone calls le and meeting people...

Btw, I think I'm gonna love this job. I'm considered self-employed. No lump sum of start up capital. Even starting with low network also nevermind, will grow abundantly overtime. Own time own target, call anyone, talk to anyone, go anywhere I like to have coffee and never will I eat a meal alone. The only problem is the millions of rejections I have to face everyday. A career with great rewards and prospects but a career not anyone can manage.

I am paid according to how much effort I put in. If I don't work hard, then I don't deserve to eat. Likewise, If I work hard then I deserve to get paid well, let my parents have a good retirement, send them for holidays, have big parties, provide for the people I love with no worries and that's how it should be.

"Lazy hands make a man poor,
but diligent hands bring wealth." - Proverbs 10:4

Had a Vision
on Saturday, November 07, 2009, 9:22 AM

:: Fireflies by Owl City ::

Not the Official Video but I lazy to post the lyrics so I put this one. Very peaceful song. Makes me want to believe that planet earth turns slowly.

Brings me back to...

"My Tunnel of Life"

After getting lost in darkness, I climbed and crawled in pain sweat and tears in a little tunnel with no light, I just kept crawling and crawling until I finally came out to the main tunnel where I took a long break and thought about what happened.

At that point I've come to realise I've gone through the worst ALONE, and there's nothing that will stop me now!

My path started to move up to a fleet of stairs, I knew I was reaching my destination. I could feel it. I'm giving my all to walk up the stairs, throwing away everything I once carried. Amazingly, the firefly came back to say hello but I ignored it and continued, determined to finish my flight of stairs alone...

But unexpectedly, it felt really warm and I realized that the row of light bulbs were there once again with that same astonishingly bright one at the end of every week but this time it seems larger as it was much much nearer...

Now within reach...

So is the firefly...

I'm left with a choice.

To catch the firefly, the bulb will dim and eventually die.
To take the bulb, the firefly will sting me and die someday. Either one, I'll have a light for the rest of my life but my speed will slow down due to the extra weight that I'll need to provide for any. Batteries for the bulb or food for the firefly.

The last choice is to ignore the both and finish my flight of stairs...

2 months to decide, afterwhich there will be no turning back.

Had a Vision
on Sunday, November 01, 2009, 6:59 PM

:: Out of Body Experience ::

I tried to die today by doing a backflip.

All I remembered was jumping up but didn't remember anything about landing... I saw the room spinning several rounds, thinking I was in the air doing the backflip but when I stopped spinning, I realised I was lying down in a arkward position with my eyes closed, my shirt slightly up, and I heard voices.. "You ok?" "Are you alright?"

Vaguely hearing those voices, I pulled down my shirt and used a hand to cover my face as if in shame. I thought about the experience so I could blog it down. I was thinking how long it was cos it felt like a few hours...

I have a big bump on the back of my head now cos I think I only managed 100-120 degrees flip. I didn't really felt the pain cos it felt more like I came out of my body and was hit back to earth by God or something. Now I guess death isn't something very scary, it'll just be over in less than a second and either I'll see darkness forever or a moment of darkness followed by an eternity of light. I definitely won't remember anything or feel anything at that point. Interesting...

After that I learnt that having a bump is a good thing cos the body is rushing blood towards the area that needs healing. What IS BAD is if it is a dent in the head, then it's a must to rush to a hospital liao. The bump should last for a week or two but any more than that must see doctor liao.

Another thing I learnt that my greatest sin is still pride cos even at death I was still concern about my face...

Help me God.

Had a Vision
on , 4:46 PM

:: Laying the first brick ::

If you're going to build a wall, what's the first thing to do?

Lay down the first brick! YES!

It's been a month since I started my journey, and today I passed my second paper! Yay! One more to go! And what's more? Tmr I'll be officially contracted to be a Financial Consultant under AIA. Woo!!

Maybe there's not much done, just two papers. Maybe there isn't any significant change or progress. I may or may not achieve success in the future as there are no guarantees in life... BUT what's more important is ACTION being taken!

If you lay down that first brick, are you better, and closer to your goal than those who have no goals or worst, those who just talk and talk and think and don't do anything at all?! YES!

Successful people take MASSIVE ACTION!

Jiayou! Ah Fu! Gambateh!

Dear God, thank you so much for today, thank you for reassuring me without hesitating when I annoyingly continued asking for it. Even though I wasn't really sure about my paper today but You, God of Wonders, made a way for me. Even though I'm feeling unwell and tired but You, Almighty God, gave me the strength to carry on through the day. I pray for more reassurance as I must admit that I am weak, my faith and confidence in this path are low but I BELIEVE that You will be my guide, holding me by Your side. In Jesus Christ most precious name I pray, amen.

Had a Vision
on Thursday, October 29, 2009, 10:28 PM

:: 600th Post - Worried ::

I'm getting a little worried of my future. I'm worried for the family. I'm 23, my dad is 58, the only sole bread winner of the family of 5. Mei still studying and definitely can't work anytime soon. The government said 55 was the retirement age so my dad is 3 years overdue...

I also feel that he should retire le... but if he retire or worst case it anything were to happen, who will take care of the family expenses, house and car loans when there have been no savings from my parents? My mom? she's 50, no skills, no education, attitude problem, will she be able to support? Unlikely...

My older sis? She's 27 so by right she's suppose to be married and have at least a stable income to help support the family but God had other plans. She had an accident when she was very young that resulted in some brain damage that made her capacity to learn very little. She scored all zeros for her primary school and went to katong special school. She didn't fit in either cos of her attitude, she got easily angered. Always quarreling with the family except me. I asked for Jesus's eyes... God wants me to learn something I'm just not sure what it is yet...

So who's next in line? ME!!! The only son! but beside the point, I'm the only one left to be the next sole bread winner! I MUST do something about it! They tell me not to stress about my life but HOW?!! In 2 years time, he's gonna be 60, I'll be 25, when he's 65, I'll be 30! And at 30 if I have a job that pays 2k-3k will it be enough for a family of 5 still with loans and having parents that DON'T save money! How will we survive?! Reality will hit me in the face and tell me that even dying is not a choice! Then How?

That's why I MUST prevent this from happening NOW!! I MUST achieve my goal of a million by 30! I will eventually become the sole bread winner, compressing whatever experience he has into this short time is not possible but learning how to be successful from successful people is! I MUST gain enough to cover the family, my own future family, give my parents a proper retirement that they deserve, pay up the house loan and still enough to buy a house and car for my family, prepare for my future children's education without worrying if they want to go overseas to study or any private school they are interested in... ALL THIS requires money... I don't love money and definitely don't want to serve it but what money can do in this time, this generation, on earth matters alot.

There are people dying from hunger everyday as we speak. Fortunately, we HAVE the ability to help them.. US, the people of GOD, are not here to hate money and shun away from it just becos it's hard to go heaven. It's how we use the money thats important. It's ok to work hard and earn alot of money, it's ok to be wealthy. It's hard to give away money when you're rich cos of the lifestyle that needs to be given up. So if we can just avoid the thought of having a good lifestyle and just live a normal life, we're ok! We still can earn alot but instead of splurging on ourselves, we splurge on those who really needs it. This is where many would say "For What! I work so hard so those lazy poor assholes get to live! They deserve to die since they're so lazy!" This is why it's easier for a camel to through a needle...

Do you think God wants evil people to become rich? Or good people... I'm really wondering why the good people can be happy with just a normal life. God wants US to be rich! Because He knows we will spend the money wisely and not on branded clothes, branded cars, thousands of shoes or other insignificant 'wants' in our life... He knows... but honestly speaking, how many can escape the temptation when they're rich... Not many but then again did many foresee this problem before they become rich... unlikely... unfortunately this is how the world is, sadly to say...

God, I praise for being such a wonderful God that made this world so perfect even though it seems so sucky to us. Even though my life seems like it's gonna become bad but I believe You will make it become better. I thank you for all the things I've been through, the blood, sweat and tears. I believe that all the setbacks, rejections and pain I've been through will eventually make me a better man, a stronger person and most importantly, more like You, Jesus. I pray you will bless me with the wisdom to know what's good and what's bad. I also pray that you continue to mould me, chisel away all that is impure and displeasing in Your eye. Lastly I pray that You will continue to reassure me of this path I'm taking... In Jesus Christ name I pray, amen.

Had a Vision
on Sunday, October 25, 2009, 10:48 PM

:: Overflowing ::

Nowadays when I go to church, I'd ask myself "WTF am I doing here? I wanna leave church.." I used to have this feeling during my lowest times, like the whole world is against me, everything I did somehow just goes wrong, feeling empty, dry, tired, or just down...

But now this feeling of leaving church comes from a whole new different perspective, I have this feeling of my cup overflowing, I want to go out and reach out to the many souls that are crying, the souls stuck in places where they never had the chance to hear about the good news. They are the people who really needs God's love compared to most people here who are just taking things for granted.

"The cup that gets the most water is the cup that is empty." - me

Applies to our attitude in learning which brings me to why I hate adults, cos as we age with experience, our knowledge grows and so does our pride which leads to our capicity to learn becoming lesser and lesser. We will start to think we know alot and we stop taking advice from others especially younger people but isn't it obvious that more and more younger people are taking over the world? *angry*

This is why I want to deny growing up, not because I don't want to accept responsibilities but I don't want to become ignorant nor arrogant. No matter how many times I deny my age, fact is I'm subconsciously growing. Knowing what's right and wrong, knowing what I must do shouldn't do and more importantly what I really want in life.

I like children, I tend to just stare and admire them alot for their energy, vigor, and most of all, their ability to just do whatever they want and not caring about how others look at them or think of them. In the end, we will realize that actually people don't really care about what we do, they don't really think or look at our 'foolish acts' as much as we thought they would. It has always been ourselves who cared about what we do or how we thought others would think of us. I must say some do, but truth is most don't really care. Come to think of it, they actually envy those who are really living.

"Our greatest enemies that limits us, are ourselves." - me

My advice, go ahead and re-live your childhood. Don't be afraid to show the world how colorful you really are. *wink*

At that time Jesus, full of joy through the Holy Spirit, said, "I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children. Yes, Father, for this was your good pleasure. Luke 10:21

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. - Romans 15:13

For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. - 2 Corinthians 1:5

May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you. - 1 Thessalonians 3:12

Had a Vision
on Monday, October 12, 2009, 8:19 PM

:: Nick Vujicic - No Limbs, No Worries ::

Had a Vision
on , 3:39 PM

:: My journey begins... ::

"No matter what you are feeling at the moment, life is not going to wait for you." -me

I've been away again... after I recently ORD on 15 sept, I have been attending seminars, workshops and learning about some very awesome people in the world, because I believe in becoming the best.

There may be many ways to achieve success, but I believe the best way is to learn from the best themselves. When you were in school, you don't just ask any student how to get 'A's in a certain subject you weren't sure of, you would ask the best person in class or the teacher who knows best how.

Having known the 'Ultimate Success Formula' from Adam Khoo at the free seminar I went on "Patterns of Excellence", I set off to find out more about this Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP) he briefly mentioned about. I wanted to sign up for the Patterns of Excellence workshop but I got no money but I did buy this book called "Lucky Bastard" by Adam Wong. Another reason was I also wanted to bring my friends together to attend with me as well cos I dun wanna succeed alone, but anyway, I went on to find Anthony Robbins on Youtube and watched the whole 'The Best of Anthony Robbins' where he talks about 'Unleashing the Power Within', and it was A M A Z I N G ! More than just a motivational talk that lasts a day or two, but now I finally realize the power of the human mind.

Following this new momentum in me, I attended a few more seminars and workshops, learning about Niches, Investments, and ROI Marketing from other successful people like Ken Chee and Wendy Kwek, went for a Professional Image and Grooming to learn about dining etiquettes and color codes. Then I went to watch a video by Robert Kiyosaki about what the Rich Dad knows that the Poor Dad doesn't. Enlightened and more importantly, reassured of my path...

Having this reassurance of the Destiny that lies ahead of me, I signed up for the Entrepreneur Workshop despite having no money but it drove me even more start my study program with AIA to be a Financial Planner, to take action, to take my first step...

The next few milestones would be leveraging on..

Internet Marketing
biggest market in the world (to date, 1,668,870,408 people are using the internet) - http://www.internetworldstats.com/stats.htm

Forex Trading
largest and most liquid financial market in the world (Daily turnover was reported to be over US$3.2 trillion in April 2007 by the Bank for International Settlements.) - Wikipedia

Thank you God for clearing the fog in my path.

Had a Vision
on Monday, September 28, 2009, 9:19 PM

:: Fated to Love ::

I just finish watching this taiwanese drama called "Fated to Love"

Usually I dun watch tv but just happen to see it on tv the other day while my family watching so I went online to complete the whole thing... (scroll down for the link about this drama)

Anyway, I'm just gonna blog about the episode I like best where they 'accidentally' met again after 2 years at his house while they were actually trying to avoid each other..

Near the end was my favourite where they had my favourite quotes..

欣怡(Chen Xin Yi):
"有人說女人被騙第一次是純真, 第二次是無知, 第三次就是愚蠢"
"People say that a girl is just too innocent when she is fooled on the first time. But she is too naive is if she is fooled for the second time. And if she is fooled for the third time, she is simply stupid."

存希(Ji Cun Xi):
"我只知道第一次是偶然, 第二次是必然, 第三次是命中注定"
"I only know that the first time is accidental. The second time is inevitable. And the third time is by fate!"

Anyway, I watched the whole thing here,
http://www.mysoju.com/fated-to-love-you/
cos here got english subtitle and having my chinese so jialat..

Had a Vision
on Thursday, September 10, 2009, 12:38 PM

:: My brain is 60% female?! but better liao.. ::

Your Brain is 60% Female, 40% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

Had a Vision
on Monday, September 07, 2009, 6:18 PM

:: Wa! Signs got appearance attached de meh.. ::

You Look Like an Aquarius

It's likely that you are very striking. You stand out in a room.

You are probably also taller than average, and that also helps you get noticed.

You have classical facial features... what some might call a handsome face.

You have are attractive in a cool way. You're so attractive, it's intimidating.

Like most Aquarius people, you are probably extremely independent... both in your thoughts and actions.

You find other people fascinating, and you develop deep, long lasting friendships.

What Sign Do You Look Like?

The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

Had a Vision
on , 6:14 PM

:: Not an attention seeker ya... ::

You Are Not A Show Off

You're happy with who you are, and you don't need other people's affirmations to prove it.

You don't really like excess attention, and you prefer to blend in with the crowd.

You are modest and humble. You don't make a big fuss out of your accomplishments.

You prefer to fly under the radar. The people who matter most will like you no matter what.

Are You a Showoff?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

Had a Vision
on , 6:10 PM

:: Seduction Style (have changed) ::

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get.

You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them.

The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase.

You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away.

You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance.

Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't!

You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors.

Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor.

You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

Had a Vision
on , 6:08 PM

:: Leader of Dreams ::

Hmm... this personality test I took from jy blog, i always get different result from different quiz... facebook i got ENTJ, here I got INFP... so different.. First, I'm told I'm a General, a leader then now tell me I'm a Dreamer... Means what? General Dreamer? or a Leader of Dreams? haha

anyway, here's the quiz:
http://kisa.ca/personality/index.php

Here's where you can read about the result: (change the infp to the result u got)
http://www.geocities.com/lifexplore/infp.htm

Something I find true in INFP... "At times, this characteristic leaves them feeling isolated, especially since INFPs are found in only 1 percent of the general population."

I guess I'm still me.. having rare personality splits... I'm starting to believe I'm the type of chimera with 2 individual brains that grows dominant on different situations or maybe it's time based... XP

Had a Vision
on Friday, August 14, 2009, 10:20 AM

:: I Said A Prayer For You Today ::

"I said a prayer for you today and know God must have heard.
I felt the answer in my heart although He spoke no word.
I didn't ask for wealth or fame, I knew you wouldn't mind.
I asked Him to send treasures of a far more lasting kind.
I asked that He'd be near you at the start of each new day.
To grant you health and blessings and friends to share your way.
I asked for happiness for you in all things great and small.
But it was for His loving care I prayed the most of all."

Thank you God for loving me and listening to my sigh.
Please answer all my who, what, when, where and why.

How did a heart so big and strong get so easily broken.

Words are not enough to express how much I feel at the moment.

I really hate this time of grinding and testing.

The worst thing is not this, it's the waiting.

Had a Vision
on Thursday, August 13, 2009, 11:29 PM

:: Sweet Bloody Morning ::

I had another sweet dream this morning about a girl.. but I wun be blogging down... cos I 4gotten the details... but not the girl though.. =X

But it was a nice, fuzzy, and warm feeling. These are the few things in life that keeps me going. Reminding me that God has already prepared an unimaginable future for me, and I need not worry.

Anyway, I had quite a bloody start. I went to the toilet and spit out blood. Apparently my surgery wound is still bleeding, I'm starting to wonder if I'll faint from lost of blood... better keep my activities low for now.. Still need to study for M9 though.. sianz... I hate studying...

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, August 04, 2009, 10:31 AM

:: Mummy Nightmare ::

ok, I had a nightmare this time and it was only 5hrs to REM..

I was doing something in a mall or somewhere then I met Ivan, said I wanted to go school already but he say he'll give me a lift in his car, but then he held me back after we came upon this museum-like place that was having a rare opening meaning it's only opening today and maybe the next time in a very long time. He tell me to stay for a while to go see see.

It was an exhibition on mummies coming to life. We were brought down a levels underground, and we carried a special lamp, then the tour guide showed us how the mummies came to life by bringing the lamp near to the coffins which they really did came to life and walked towards us. I tried it in another room then when I came out of the room, everyone was gone.

I panicked and quickly went back, took the lift back up, when the lift opened, the lobby was in pitch darkness, I quickly ran towards the front door that was made of steel. I was scared, I tried to open it but it wouldn't budge. It was still in pitch darkness and there was nobody in the lobby room but I could still see as there was a table lamp lit up at the front desk. I went to duplicate it (somehow), then I stretched the duplicate bigger so theres more light then something happened and I woke up in a little shock state. Stupid nightmare, what was that all about? Maybe cos I'm going to the dentist for my wisdom tooth surgery...

ok, interpreted... I'm just unsure of something, but eventually everything will be all right after I gain more understanding. Don't understand the mummies coming alive part though..

Had a Vision
on Monday, August 03, 2009, 5:56 PM

:: Best Swimmer Dream ::

4th dream in a row...

This dream had 3 parts,

First part was when I was in a group, we were sort of on a mission, a group of abt 7 of us didn't follow the rest of the bigger group to the place where we were suppose to go and joined another big group to play water bomb games in a different room. Our water bombs were different, we actually used mango juice and some bags of water bomb with mango cubes inside. We were eventually caught by the other group ic as we had a different arm pad symbol. This IC wanted to report us but we told them we know the other teams' IC and that IC came and say we can stay as we're ok. We were happy.

Suddenly, this guy rushed in from a backdoor and said someone wanted to see me immediately conderning some stuffs that only I knew. So I followed all the way to this hdb where I saw that person and hid first, preparing my documents, while this guy kept disturbing me, telling me about this insect on the wall and brushed it off revealing that it's a bee, slowing down my process of gathering my documents. While I search for the documents, they were asking for me, but I wasn't prepared until I took out my last documents from a very messy file of mine that was also in a very messy bag and wanted to go downstairs where this middle age woman was.

Before I knew it, I ended up in a room full of people, I left my bag(it was a sling bag btw) and was suddenly in a swimming class learning how to swim but the way we were taught how to swim was rather dangerous as we were not learning in a swimming pool but rather at the beach or maybe a lake, but definitely not a pool yet somehow it was clear underneath enough for us to see the ground and it was around 2 to 3 metres in height. I knew how to swim already so I swam my normal forg style while others used freestyle and some were struggling.

Before I knew it, I was the fastest swimmer, and was in a competition where I won first prize, then everyone started to treat me different in a room I came out from there were alot of people, but when I went back in to collect my sling bag, there was nobody in the room, and I went to collect my bag myself thinking about those people who I conclude were hypocrites, as they never even helped me get my bag. At that point I knew, "so what if i'm the best, there's no one to really share this happiness with" I took a backdoor out, avoiding those hypocrites. This was were a few different people. I 4got their faces, I woke up. End.

Had a Vision
on Sunday, August 02, 2009, 8:48 AM